Recently I’ve been struggling. Life has been pretty chaotic. Hell, it seems like the whole world is in chaos currently. I can’t seem to find the motivation to do the things I want to do. In fact, sometimes it feels like I can barely breathe. I’m constantly struggling with “Imposter Syndrome”. A struggle that a lot of the criticism that I receive has done little to help. Yet this is just where my inner thoughts start.
I have big plans, goals and aspirations. A hundred and one various projects that I am working on, and a list of must-dos and ideas longer than the dictionary.
As it gets both later in the year and colder it appears that travel is getting harder and harder. At least until next spring or summer. It’s odd, even if I know that I won’t be travelling for a while I still get a very weird feeling when I can’t travel. It affects me more than I care to admit.
The website is not easy to run and is a constant learning process. I try to do something every day to make it a little bit better, but yet it isn’t anywhere close to how I picture it in my head. How I want it to be. I Have been focusing a lot on tips, reviews, and the like because that is what Google wants. Not necessarily what you guys want or what I want.
I am 100% going slower than I should with the expansion plans because of a combination of the aforementioned imposter syndrome mixed with a few other things. Two of the biggest of those are the fears of both getting started and putting myself out there.
Constant thoughts flood my mind including “What if I’m not good enough, funny enough, or have enough experience?”. Not to mention the nagging thought of, “Yeah, I’ve done a lot, but nothing even close to Nomadic Matt, Marek Bron, Thomas Brag, or Christian LeBlanc. Maybe I just don’t have anything new to give”
What if, what if, what if…? It’s not just a show by Marvel. It’s a constant question for a lot of content creators. It also happens to a lot of travellers. Trust me, I can give personal accounts of it happening.
These are just scraping the top of the barrel when it comes to the struggles in the life of people who want to live differently. I mean don’t even get me started on financials! It can be a nightmare. Both logistical and otherwise.
Yet even with saying all of that, there is one point I need to make. One thing I want you to take away from this. It’s worth it. In the end, it is absolutely worth it. Looking back on all the things I’ve done, experiences I’ve had, memories and friends I’ve acquired I can honestly say nothing else compares to those special moments.
So whoever and wherever you are when you read this. If you are struggling I want you to know these few things. It’s worth it and you are capable. Don’t sell yourself short. Keep doing whatever it is that you are doing and don’t give up on yourself. Sometimes all you need is a push.
“There is a wide world out there, my friend, full of pain, but filled with joy as well. The former keeps you on the path of growth, and the latter makes the journey tolerable.”
R.A. Salvatore
